I've been writing on Smoke most of the day. These men are exhausting. This one, the muse for Jonas, might be the sanest out the bunch. And that's not saying alot!
Yes, these crazy characters took me through a range of emotions. I laughed, I cried, I had to get up and walk away from his book then come back to it just so I could see what I was writing.
I truly do not think there is a book like this that exists. There probably is, but I don't know of one. It's so complicated and controversial. Not taboo, but definitely difficult.
I do love something complex, but this, by far is the most complex plot I've ever done. I wish I could tell you, but if I did, I'd ruin the book. I'm really trying hard to finish it. I haven't started on Immortals like I wanted because of the weekend with hubby and fam, so lets just say its on the backburner for now.
Writers, have you ever had characters you loved and hated? Seriously, with these I do. I love them and wonder why the hell I decided to put myself through this shit. What I want to do is try to make it right and believable. And then there's this I saw from one of my favorite authors.
Basically, she said, and I quote: "Fiction is escapism. Otherwise it would be non-fiction. I don't want to suspend belief. I want to believe that this could happen."
And that's the thing. This said plot I WANT TO BELIEVE IT COULD HAPPEN! *inhales deeply* I do, because dammit, it's fiction, but ... but ... it has to be
Okay so I have to do my best to make this story real to the reader and myself. I believe in lots of shit anyway. Vampires, unicorns, the power of real love. So I believe, my job is to make the readers believe as I do.
So, in closing. I have some work to do. I want to make this book believable, even though my fave author says FICTON IS ESCAPISM, I have a job. Even if the said plot has neva evah happened, I have to make the reader believe it could.
Lots of work on my end then.
But I'll put it away for now because truly, I am fucking exhausted!
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