desiresdd17 | Moody...

Trying very hard not to get down...

Why you ask? Because sales are meh!

*groans*

Starf*cked has done okay, but not as well as I'd hoped. I've promoted the book, but haven't asked for any reviews on it. I was hoping because it was a contemporary and not strange like Michael's demon books it would sell itself. It is relatively low angst, a gorgeous cover, and the blurb, in my mind, is pretty good.

However, it isn't doing as well as I'd hoped. I was looking for Smoke type numbers, but that's not happening. I've been discussing this with author friends and one thinks I should abandon contemporary for the time being and focus on my dark romances and paranormal. Although I love that idea, BL muse doesn't. She wants to write more rockstars, as we have a bunch on the docket.

Push comes out October 23rd. I subbed Voodoo to my publisher because I thought maybe it would be accepted and get a boost from them. Nerds has yet to be finished and Bend, my follow-up to Push hasn't been started. It's looking more like October for this. I also have 2 more rockstar books with covers, so that notion of totally abandoning contemporary won't happen right now. Those other books need to be written for me to give them a chance, especially since I bought covers.

As for Michael, his list has grown. I signed on to do a dark romance project with other authors, plus I have the Mpreg story I'm titling Ambrose's Light for now. The ongoing Mpreg with co-author as well as one I'm doing as part of an Mpreg collection. I also have a taboo daddy kink story for Michael that I probably won't start until after Nano. The dark romance is my NANO because its due February 1st.

With all this extra activity going on, you'd think I'd be excited, when I'm actually not. I've struggled to write for long periods as of late because I feel like a failure. I know the book has only been out two weeks, which is why I'm not giving up on it, but it is kind of disheartening.

Writing pro is a tough business, esp when you self publish. And since I'm still trying to find something that appeals to readers, it's even harder. How to I write what I want and sell books?

Ugh!

Still searching for that elusive formula that many writers are looking for. It's a hard road. I've joked about going back to being a music journalist and writing fanfic. Truthfully, it's looking better ever day.

I could still write, but without the pressure of the business side. I could post my work on free sites and if people like it, they can comment or simply like the posts

Yeah, like my muses would let me.

Hmph

Truth is, I couldn't stop publishing even if I wanted to. Its the drive to succeed that burns within me, knowing one day, I'll find that niche that resonates with people. And I know I will, but its taking longer than expected.

However, like my good friend says, all we can do is keep writing and improving our craft.

Survive and adapt...

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Okay so WIPs

For Michael - Resignation, Ambrose, the MPreg co-author story, and my free vampire story on his blog.

For BL - Nerds (I need to finish this book because part of it is in that antho. It would be nice for me to finish it this year so I can release it

Thanks for listening to me ramble and whine!