Damn LiveJournal, Depression, Bahumbug!

[desiresdd17]

Damn Livejournal didn't allow me to login from any browser until I just tried a minute ago. SO NOT JOKING. Hey folks, get your shit together, huh?

Anyway, I've still been busy editing mostly, a little writing on the side, mostly fanfic and my free read I've decided to do for Xmas. I was down a couple of days too, not wanting to do a darn thing especially last Sunday.

Ironically, this happened after  had a great night with my husband. Them fuckin' hormones, I tell ya!

I just had a moment where you look back at your life and figure, damn, what have I accomplished? I also started to have doubts about my writing abilities. I had the moment where I said, I'm not good enough because I noticed other writers being in the top 100 on Amazon and getting rave reviews. I mean, I havent made it with the Amazon thing yet but I have sold books through All Romance, Bookstrand especially, the proof comes from my pubs. And I've had a few good reviews, even a few fan letters. 

All of us authors go through it. I've coached some of my fellow writers who are better than me through it and when I posted in one of the FB groups about my feelings, I got a wealth of support from a lot of them telling me how good I really am and that it will pass. What to do when I feel that way, etc. It was really great and that, along with some reading as well as stroking from BFF's helped tremendously. Now, Im back to feeling confident again and ready for the new year.

In looking back at 2011, I have accomplished a bunch.

I made my goal of 20 acceptances. I have 9 books coming out next year so far 4 from Rawiya alone. I'm stoked. It doesn't even count all the other stories that have yet to be subbed. I had 4 books come out this year, 8 short stories. Some don't even get that

Sales have been good on my other books and I see myself finally making more money from writing which is pretty cool. I'm making a name, building a brand, these things take time and truly a little luck is needed when you create the book that gets rave reviews and great Amazon sales. I know my time will come for Amazon when I write a book that catches on. 

So... as you can see, I feel better and glad LJ let me back in. Thanks to everyone who said nice things this past week and all my fans, the few I have. *giggle* For supporting me through my first full yr of writing. Its been a blast and will be even better in 2012.

Oh who is that guy up top? MMA fighter and model Adam Von Rothsfelder. My new muse and I think he should be my avatar since he's a fighter like I'm aiming to be!

Isnt he hot. *drools*

Comments

Re: Hugs Catriana

[catriana.livejournal.com]

It's quite alright, you're a very busy woman ♥

I doubt I'd ever give up writing, I think I'd go insane. I could see myself perhaps not writing professionally anymore, but even then I wouldn't do so until I finished my Arcanus Series.

When I wrote my initial post, I realized later how whiny I must have seemed. A lot of authors complain about how their editors and betas are 'picking' on them or attempt to try and change their entire story, when in reality all they're trying to do is help. I've always considered myself receptive to all edits, I rarely go against anything suggested to me. I should endeavor to control my moods a bit better, so as not to worry folks.

Then again, sometimes my moods are the reason why I avoid the internet altogether, and why I'm so scarce.

There's a writing contest in celebration of the new Dragon Age novel out, and I'm going to enter. I doubt I'll win, I know of a few amazing fanfic writers who are entering, but it'll be fun to try :)